This is hard for me to talk about because I’m so emotional right now

and there’s little space to feel such painful emotions during times of massive transition

and initiations in our society…

and many just laugh and tell me to ‘celebrate!’

But I’m not sure how I will navigate this new chapter

and I feel like the best part of my life is gone…

My boys moved out to University and it hurts to not hear them laughing or feel their hugs right now…

It’s not about hiding and putting on a pretty face…

honouring our pain creates WHOLENESS

which creates a ripple effect of kindness and gentleness towards ourself and all

Here’s a VIDEO… I’m pretty RAW…

i have been sobbing uncontrollably for months

unprepared for the grief of an empty home

i don’t understand my new reality

tears and tears

that’s my thing now

letting it flow out

but i’ll get through this because i won’t hide or repress it

…reminding myself to trust as i go through this massive transition and painful initiation

Imagine the caterpillar’s struggle would be for nothing if she didn’t endure,

she’d never know the expansion and beauty of her butterfly self that was to come…

I’m grateful my boys are happy and excited about their new lives and adventures to come

I’m grateful for my husband and friends and family and clients who love me…

I’m grateful I can let it out and bring this here and not feel crazy…

I’m grateful for trusting that even though a thousand tears must fall that in time

they will turn to petals at my feet…

I’m grateful for the upcoming reinventions, whatever they will be…

and I’m grateful for YOU ♥