It’s been a couple months already and I’m not back yet, but I’ve received so many emails and inquiries about how I am doing and so I wanted to share an UPDATE.

AND ITS PACKED so grab a healthy beverage and sit back and enjoy 🙂

This weekend I celebrated my 50th Birthday!!!

I allowed myself to receive so fully!

Not just the petals on my pillow as I woke (nice touch Babe!) or the gifts and cards and flowers or calls from my friends around the world…

What really touched me deeply is how much LOVE I was able to let in…

The look in my boys’ eyes as they read the homemade cards they made for me…(!!!)

The LOUD joyful birthday song at the restaurant with so much laughter and hugs and high-fives…

As you know I’ve been through a really rough patch the last few months and I wasn’t sure I was up to much of a celebration- even begging my husband NOT to throw me a huge surprise party- but it was just so perfect…

Because I felt so ALIVE and EXPANSIVE and gorgeously OPEN to LIFE… 

My life is a Fairytale!

Thank you, more please ♥

EXQUISITE SELF CARE UPDATE

As I mentioned above I’m not there yet but I have made some beautiful progress!

I have been doing several key things since I got sick that have been VITAL for my healing:

1. more REST/SLEEP- no computers or other media- just quiet, getting horizontal even in the middle of the day, eyes closed, stillness.

THIS IS NATURE’S COMMAND when we are ill.

AND more SLEEP- my biggest challenge ever! I’ve never slept more than 4 hours a night and often it’s even less than that skipping falling asleep altogether…I’ve COMPENSATED for this with my HIGH-RAW/WHOLEFOODS DIET… but I feel my body really requires more sleep and I am going to be summoning the assistance of a genius ANTHROPOSOPHICAL medical doctor to investigate with me and diagnose if I have a HORMONE IMBALANCE or what is causing this chronic and acute INSOMNIA. Will share more when I can on this as I know MANY of YOU also struggle with sleep deprivation/disorders/insomnia and it is causing havoc with our health despite an excellent diet!

2. more PROTEIN- raw/vegan/cooked/vegetarian/animal- I have been experimenting with it ALL.

I am noticing my body is changing- NOTE TO SELF- Women’s bodies have NATURAL CYCLES over a lifetime and therefore their NUTRITIONAL needs etc SHIFT and we may REQUIRE to allow for dietary changes and instead of being too dogmatic, HONOUR THE NEEDS OF OUR FEMININE BODIES. My good friend and colleague author PETE CERQUA reached out to me and put me in touch with an expert NUTRITIONIST –Victoria Toujilina– on his team who had me try a PROTEIN SUPPLEMENT (I was so not open at first but am so glad I tried it!) on a REGENERATIVE PROTOCAL that she put me on that has been SUPER HELPFUL/CONVENIENT when I was too weak to do all my regular high-raw diet-

>> For YOUR FREE NUTRITIONAL ASSESSMENT/CONSULTATION contact Victoria:

Victoria Toujilina’s email: victoria at 90-SecondFitness dot com

3. more MINERALS- especially MAGNESIUM for my heart- The best one I’ve ever found is my dear friend Dr Carolyn Dean’s RE-MAG and RE-LYTE MINERALS at www.rnareset.com.

This TRINITY has been INVALUABLE for me!

And so has all the LOVE, SUPPORT, TRANSPARENCY, OPENNESS, FAITH and RECEIVING I’ve been blessed with by so many of YOU!

I have also been using CHINESE HERBS working with a wonderful Chinese doctor locally specific for building up my QI and shrinking cysts.

ULTRASOUND REPORT TODAY

Today I went for a third ULTRASOUND in 4.5 months to see if what I have been doing is working or not to shrink my large OVARIAN CYST:

Ultrasound in Sept 2014- 8.8 cm

Ultrasound in Nove 2014- 9.2 cm

Ultrasound today Jan 22 2015- 8cm

It IS SHRINKING~ HOORAY!

I still have a ways to go but I am on track gently moving in the right direction, HEALING NATURALLY WITHOUT SURGERY :-))

THANK YOU FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPORT, I HAVE FELT IT ALL!

TONIGHT I CELEBRATE with a soul sister I adore…

Amber Hartnell is hosting a free call with Ariel White that I am excited about and I don’t want you to miss out on HERE

PLEASURE PLEASURE AND MORE PLEASURE!

in love and beauty,

p.s. 50th BIRTHDAY BRAGS!!

WARNING:

Women aren’t generally encouraged in our culture to put themselves first, go for their desires, or brag (God forbid!) about their accomplishments… we are taught to SACRIFICE ourselves, take care of EVERYBODY ELSE, and SHRINK so we never outshine others… this is the OLD PARADIGM that doesn’t serve us and we get to DELETE that outdated program and be the CREATRIX in our lives!

**BRAGGING, a feminine art made popular by beloved Mama Gena is the antidote to diminishing ourselves and all the GOOD that is in our life…I was first introduced to bragging by Mama Gena years ago but only recently have tried it, and it’s ESSENTIAL for any woman who desires to gift herself and others PERMISSION to live and love fully- and it’s also FUN, so here goes:

I brag I JUST TURNED 50!

I brag I still feel like I’m 37!

I brag I always said ‘when I’m 50 I can do whatever I want!’!

I brag my 3 guys are lavishing me with their LOVE and I feeeeeeel it!!!

I brag I’m HEALING!

I brag I have 5 girlfriends that I’ve known for 3 DECADES and they always remember my birthday even though they’re scattered all over the globe!

I brag TRANSPARENCY in rupture and though I’ve been through so much lately and am not out of the woods yet that I’ve turned a corner!

I brag rose petals all over my pillow this morning when I woke up!

I brag there are things I HATE that I’m not putting up with anymore especially now that I’m 50- WHOOO HOOO!

I brag I am a powerful RECEIVER!

I brag I no longer put people on PEDESTALS!

I brag I connect with people who match or raise me, TOO!

I brag I give myself full permission to feel it ALL and experience WHOLENESS!

I brag I LOVE my sensual and sacred pussy!

I brag I can walk barefoot on snow and GROUND MYSELF everyday no matter the weather!

I brag I’m still LEARNING!

I brag I’m POWERFULLY vulnerable!

I brag I AM a feminine sensual beauty!

I brag my designs make WOMEN feel feminine, sensual, beautiful!

I brag I’m a hot sexy genius because I take EXQUISITE care of my body and I’m loving her more than ever!

I brag I may have more fears than most but I usually face them which makes me very BRAVE!

I brag my burning DESIRES!

I brag my connections with SOUL SISTERS around the world!

I brag my talents and TENDERNESS and truth!

I brag I’m soft AND strong!

I brag I’m NOBODY’S fool!

I brag I’m coming out of a very dark time and place with SUPPORT and GRACE!

I brag I’m ALLOWING in more pleasure and I don’t feel a damn bit of guilt!

I brag 50 is the new 30 and I’m going to RAWK it!

I brag younger women will envy my feminine MYSTIQUE!

I brag I know how to love and I am so loved AND loveable!

I brag I am seen and known and loved in this most amazingly potent COMMUNITY!

I brag I feel lit up with love and APPRECIATION for everything I have, and everything I want, and everything I am and everything I’M NOT!

I brag the SKY IS THE LIMIT this year for me!

I brag I’m NOT holding back anymore!

I will love more GIVE more RECEIVE more SHARE more BELIEVE more HELP more PLAY more SURRENDER more DESIGN more TRUST more CLAIM more INSPIRE more LAUGH more CRY more EXPRESS more CLIMAX more ENJOY more RELAX more TRAVEL more I’LL raise the stakes higher UPLIFT higher BE LIFTED higher DREAM bigger DANCE wilder SING louder WRITE deeper and HEAL faster and OPEN to MIRACLES more this year!

I brag I’m going to KICK UP MY HEELS LIKE CRAZY this year!

I brag I’ve been gifted another day on this beautiful blue jewel and that I’m HERE to live out loud!

NOW IT’S YOUR TURN!

I INVITE YOU to write your own BRAG LIST

FOR EXTRA CREDIT Share them in the comments if you wish~ 

ENJOY CELEBRATING YOURSELF 😉

p.p.s. A final Birthday Brag~ Receiving this: