Your support since my last vlog ‘a thousand tears’ means the world to me!

This community is wise and loving and I feel so blessed.

I made a video out in the rain for you HERE:

and it’s fun~ Luke was the highlight and stole the show LOL! 

I’m a bit of a MESS these days and my crown feels wobbly

but I don’t HIDE IT for the lotus blooms in the mud …

and we’re not here to be perfect because we already ARE Divine-

we’re here to experience being human and there’s no shame in our struggles

and the more we embrace the MESSY UGLY UNCERTAINTY RUPTURE

the faster we move through them to transform and rise in rapture.

And having YOU here with me during this huge transition is grace…

i love you,

ps Comments I received resonate so deeply:

“I can feel your grief, grief for the family life YOU created.

You missed out on a lot of Family times when your beautiful Mom passed

at such a young age, you went on, digging in your heels for survival.

You did the work to manifested a fairytale lifestyle

while doing the very difficult work that was required of you…

teaching your beautiful boys the importance of health and integrity

all while sharing with those around you all your knowledge so generously.

Now things are showing up in your life very differently,

the new silence in the house that reminds you of the aloneness

you felt after your Mom passed…

Many things can trigger our core issues even when we truly believed we have done

all our releasing and detox work…it turns out we are never done.“

“I have been following you and admiring you from afar for probably close to 10 years. I have always felt a deep resonance and with you and all you represent. When I am challenged, I secretly attempt to channel you and your feminine wisdom and inspiration. But I have never reached out to you before now. Your message and video today has touched me so, that I had to reach out and let you know that you are very loved, and even in your vulnerability, you continue to inspire and comfort. 

I am also in a period of my life where I am shedding a thousand tears.

I feel that I have lost my community, my tribe, my only “child”, my purpose, my inspiration, my success, my identity. Life is very different in my new chapter, and there is unlimited potential — but even though I have so much love from my husband and abundance around me, somehow I still feel lost and empty.

I know that speaking what is true — especially those very very vulnerable feeling and thoughts —is the first step to healing.  So, I honor you for expressing your sadness and exposing your vulnerability. We WILL re-invent ourselves at this time in our lives. 

I am on this journey with you and I am sending you love and comfort. And so much gratitude for being there for me all these years;). I often think of you as a softer, more refined and elegantly beautiful soul sister — and you have brought me so much inspiration over the years. Keep on keeping on, dear soul sister. The world needs your gift.” 

“I suspect you’re feeling extra-special feelings of loss right now

because your Mum never got to send you, Paul and Melanie off,

and you are feeling you’re drowning in the depth

of the loss of your boys leaving your nest.”

AND THIS ONE FROM A DEVOTED DAD:

“I talk every single day and I spend time with my 24 yr old son and yes it’s still difficult.

I miss him constantly.

And yes I worry too, about all the big and small things.

I stay connected (regardless) of what drama etc is happening in my own life.

I have never ever let a day go by that I don’t at least message him, or text,

or call and of course send musings of one kind or another.

 And yes I still miss him as you miss your boys.

Get choked up and become weepy.

It is (our) “job” (not really an effort of course) to stay connected and (to never ever)

wait for our kids to reach out to us.

It is our job to do that, no exceptions to this rule of quality empowering parenting.”

That one helped me realise how deeply my partner Luke is feeling…

THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING HERE

THANK YOU ALL FOR BEING