It is the first quarter of LOVE MONTH (February) and we are HERE.
We are alive and endowed with our body, our Spirit and our Life!
We desire to share our gifts and live a life of experiences that enchant us.
But we don’t always feel so tuned in and turned on…
life is a journey with many cycles and seasons especially for us women.
We all have ‘bad days’ ‘bad moods’ ‘bad habits’… I know I do 😉
WARNING: I’ve noticed especially within ‘conscious communities’ a sense of
shame or fear to acknowledge our ‘negativity’.
Teachings like The Secret or Law of Attraction can cause us to
deny and denounce all that isn’t ‘feeling good’.
And while it’s true that like attracts like and our frequency is vitally important
hence ESC and a beautiful diet etc etc
I don’t believe negating our truth is healthy or helpful.
We simply cannot successfully operate over top of in a Spiritual Bypass.
That never works and we end up leaking out passive-aggressive energy and
even exploding in a tantrum, or we internalize it and become depressed.
I’m not a fan of ‘self-improvement’ or denial-
instead I invest my energy in curiosity and turning my lead into my gold.
I have found alot of wonder and goodness can come out of negativity!
It’s like the deep, dark soil full of rot and decaying things is a hotbed
of fertility and new life.
For example, and this one is particularly raw and painful for me-
I have a lifetime of ‘bad days’ ‘bad moods’ ‘bad habits’ all stemming from insomnia.
Despite healthy ‘sleep hygeine’, diet and lifestyle
I still find it challenging and feel lucky to sleep 4-6 hours a night.
(Fortunately my sleep is very deep and improving every day =D
Sleep is a spiritual practice and I intend to cultivate it deeply this year.
For living with so little sleep all my life has had health consequences.
Plus I have companions of Melancholy, Fear and Insecurity since childhood.
Has it been Lonely? Frustrating? A Nightmare at times? Yes.
And yet, there has been so much learning, expansion, creativity, compassion and GIFTS…
I wonder if I would be here with my own business and this blog sharing
my message of EXQUISITE SELF-CARE, Sensual Beauty, Raw Foods, Detox etc etc
had my life and my sleep been much different..?
Insomnia hasn’t been my conscious choice…yet I consciously CHOOSE IT.
I choose it now after years of denying, resenting and despairing over it-
I choose it because at least for now, it’s mine, and when we argue with reality we lose
and cannot heal or transform any part of ourself that we don’t embrace.
SELF-COMPASSION AND LOVE IS THE SUBSTANCE OF TRANSFORMATION.
Now it’s your turn to identify ONE of your big ‘bads’-
could be around food or substances, relationships, your purpose, your beauty…
What is initiating in you the desire for change and healing in your life right now?
No judgement, just be kind with yourself and get curious about
the message it’s trying to tell you and even the gifts its offered 🙂
I’d love to hear in the comments!
with love and beauty sleep,
ps The Healing Baths Ritual call is happening THIS THRUS
for all Body Cleansers to further support your detox!
Watch your email for call in details, and the replay if you can’t join live.